Category Archives: everyday

it’s been years and years that i’ve been wondering, searching and longing.  i went from a state of desperation for love, to a state of devouring all love that came to me and finally to this state of turning most all love away.  maybe it’s a path to independence.  maybe it’s a plague for my […]

I’ve been very strange about relationships lately. I guess once you hit that forte you have a hard time with the rest cause it’s all a downhill march. I’m okay with the downhill march now. I smile and I wink and I love but it’s strange meeting that epoch and moving on. I’ve tried everything […]

You know I’ve had a confusing morning. Waking up at 5am. Making delicious eggs. Having a strange conversation. Having a beer. Writing some code. I was scared that today might be a backstep — that today might make my recently unwavering decisions moot. I’ve decided I’m not going to do that. The events of the […]

there are a million little strings attached to every choice you make you can destroy your life every time you choose but maybe you won’t know for twenty years I’ve been very introspective for the past several weeks. I have so many people to thank for this. I’ve been in this cycle — my immediate […]

i think the hardest part was when i took the monitor off her desk. i sat on the floor for fifteen minutes and i cried. i know that what she’s doing is fantastic for her but my god i could really use a hug from my mom today. i miss you and sister more than […]

I sat there on the plane eyes shut My shirt was wet, it felt like my chest pissed itself I might burn this house down when I get there. I contemplated I sipped the coffee in the red cup Nodded at the attendant I abuse my liver all the time My kidneys need a smack […]

you know… i’ve written about your eyes.  i’ve written about your kisses.  i’ve never wrote or maybe communicated about your love. when i feel it — disarmingly rare as it might be — it’s overwhelming.  i know that i’m a demanding lover, i know that you’re a demanding lover but somehow we communicate and understand. […]

it’s been a week since they had spoke. he couldn’t decide if it was the laughter, the cutting or the crying that threw her off but it must’ve been one of them.  he picked at his arm trying to figure out where this scratch had even come from.  taking the pieces of skin off of […]

I wrote on my calendar Last week.  i blocked Out the entire week of april 3rd-10th, 2009. we rescheduled. from may 10th-20th i was Very busy working with a new client on a project.  we decided that june would be a better month.  june wasn’t a good month for a meeting.  i was out of […]

“i long to hold you in my arms and sway — kiss and ride on the c.t.a.” These past couple months have been… different.  I’ve been loved and loved and it’s been wonderful.  Right now is a time for change though.  With many of the loved ones gone or leaving I find myself panicking and […]